What does a scanner see..??

I am not a depressive/depressed/ready to kill myself/junkie/alcoholic..... but I really liked this quote from "A Scanner Darkly"
"What does a scanner see? Into the head? Down into the heart? Does it see into me, into us? Clearly or darkly? I hope it sees clearly, because I can't any longer see into myself. I see only murk. I hope for everyone's sake the scanners do better. Because if the scanner sees only darkly, the way I do, then I'm cursed and cursed again. I'll only wind up dead this way, knowing very little, and getting that little fragment wrong too."

I am actually going to make a list of my favorite movie and book quotes and put the most unoriginal, 100% plagiarized blog entry ever ... soon.. Atleast it will be good reading.

Going straight to hell

I was watching A scanner darkly and there is this one scene where this guy is hallucinating an alien reading out all his sins. I took some time out today to recount my sins, while I was taking a super long Sunday morning shower.

It was crazy, I had all this water which was just pouring over my back and into the drain. There are people in the world who have to walk miles to get a bucket of water to share with a family of 23. I don't know if it's my fault that they have to walk that far or that they have massively unmanageable families and I am not sure if I stayed dirty and didn't shower for a week, would they actually get water on a tap in their shanty hut? But anyway it made me feel guilty and I thought that's a sin which I will go straight to hell for.

But hang on a second, what about the half eaten pizza that I threw away, I know people in my country are dying of hunger, damn, so could I have/should I have shipped my half eaten pizza to Bhikhu...somewhere..but he doesn't have food to eat, which would mean no house to live in.. where the hell do I ship the pizza to? I think I am going to hell for that too.

It would be good to do an inventory of all the things that potentially fall into a list of sins, list of things that are not approved by a holier being, list of things that people around you think are not right (those holier than thou a**holes we tend to know and laugh about) <- oops that's unacceptable behaviour too... Damn, I am going to hell...

And I need to stop thinking about my French teacher in the shower....

My Professional Career

I think I have been in some sort of a job since 2000. I tried to recount all the work that I have done, documents made, presentations created, reports submitted, project plans drafted, emails received-sent.

I believe if I took all of it.. just professional stuff that I have done at my various jobs. I could fit it into a 60 GB hard drive.

Think about it, 6 yrs of work... it all fits into a 60 GB drive.

I think I need to start a restaurant...I am sure I'll need some massive storage space and deep freezers... at least my work will occupy more space...

This arrived...

...in the mail today.....

Experiment....

Don't worry you can try this at home as a matter of fact you SHOULD try it at home. Take 5, 1 meter long wires lay them out straight at abt 5 cm distance from each other on a flat floor or a table.

Do nothing now. Leave them there for a month.

At the end of a month they should have worked themselves into a nice bunch of intertwined wires which should take you about 30 minutes to get apart and also may make you want to bang your head against a wall repeatedly.

Listen to a good song here, appropriately titled "Wires"

Last Song...

I was trying to drown the frustration today after my hair dresser had successfully clipped .7cm of my hair and charged me 2 weeks of grocery allowance for it by tuning into something that would make me forget everything that I was thinking of, something that would make everything around me disappear, something that would make me invisible to the world, this was also because he had waxed my hair to make me look like I was lining up to make love to Elton John.

At that instant my iPod played "Subterranean Homesick Alien" and I've never turned the volume up as high as I did today... and I let it play LOUD.. and I could feel everything around me disappear... I had a feeling that I was soaring... looking down at things and being able to smirk at it... it has probably been the most uplifting moment of my day.. maybe the week as well.

So taking of on my series of, "Last...".... what would be the last song that you would want to listen to before you move onto another world.... or let's not get that morose, let's make it more bearable.. the last song before you go deaf... OK.. It's your choice if you want to die or live as a deaf person..

While you're mulling over the songs... I'm listing a few of my "Last Songs"
Nice Dream
Time
Cry Freedom
and of course i'd re recommend "Subterranean Homesick Alien"

Oh and if you had to choose between living deaf or dying, what would you pick?

As you can see, I am quite pissed off about losing that ticker on my blog.

How technology fucked me over....

I used to have a ticker on my blog... Last time I logged in there were about 988 hits.. of course 837 of them were from me, but yet, I was looking forward to the 1000 hits milestone.. I was going to put up a blog - "You are the 1000th person to visit this blog, click here to win a free gift" or something like that.. I was gonna pour myself a single malt and light up a cigar to celebrate...

Last night, I was fooling around on blogger and it asked me if I wanted to pick a template for my blog and I repicked the same template that I have always had... et voila.. my ticker has disappeared!!!

So that's how technology fucked me.... and oh ya... it also gave me free porn!!!

Man's Man...

I heard this term a few years ago and they related it to John Wayne or the Marlboro Man... being the Man's man... I am taking a shot at listing some individuals who I think qualify. I know I will automatically qualify into the borderline category of not being sure of my sexual orientation...

OK....

and more...

That last post was me trying to inject some variety in my textual blog.. and it was also a feeble attempt at being artistically inclined...

I could've taken better pics, but my camera is a bit prehistoric and you already seen my savings account!!!

I realized, the only reason I wake up each morning and go to work is because I like to dress up, but I hate ironing my shirts...

I felt the fear of turning 30 recently...

Another movie for the 20 somethings grappling with growing up....The Last Kiss or L'Ultimo Bacio

Ma vie...

What I often swap my bed for....

My Saving's Account

Last night on earth

Imagine it's your last night on earth. Who would you spend that night with?? The world has all the people that you have pined for, fantasized about, loved, cared for, secretly admired, touched yourself while thinking about them.... Who would you want to spend that last night in bed with?

If you are a man, who likes women, put in the name of a woman, if you are a man who likes men, put in the name of a man. If you are a woman with a liking for men, put in the name of a man and if you're a woman who likes women, put in the name of the woman (and the name of the man who can watch the two of you).

And ya, if you've made the effort and visited the blog, don't be lazy, leave a response. It's only the people who make themselves heard, who get what they ask for.